i think this way!=)

dammit.the feeling just sucks.
honestly,i hate being mad.its not so refreshing.can?
when the day.has been rather fine.ppl just can BOOM.makes it worse.like shit!

like right now.im really pissed off with mum.
well,she just asked me to help her go to the carpark and take the blender.
*thats why sometimes,dont let ppl use yr stuff*
ok.yeah.actually i dont mind gg.but its like 5 mins to 12 am.at the carpark.
and its not so dark.but still.thats the thing i worry(5 mins to 12 and yan is not there).not bcoz im scared i can meet a ghost.
partly bcoz.im tired.and she could have called dad.to check the car b4 leaving.
remind him.why not?
THERE IS THIS THING CALLED PHONE!
and yeah.i was in fb.she asked me to help.
then i say.i dont want ah.then i say i dont want.means dont want lah.
then she walked out the room.saying.im dissapointed with my kids..
i go like huhh..??..she goes again.when others asked for help.you ppl help.and when i ask for help.
blahblahblah.well..sometimes its true yeah.we move faster.when others asked to help.than yr parents.its not us only.i bet others out there too.
haiyo.i was freaking mad.why me?ask wid lah.instead.
i lie down quietly.then i moved my glutues maximus out of the room.and asked dad for the keys.
and mum still blabbering.*NOISE POLLUTION!!*
by this time she said.nvm i will go and take myself.*inmymind,like real*
sorry but thats the truth.
i dunno.which part of me.the usual one.will just follow the instruction despite being real damn mad.
sometimes i just hate myself for that!fuck me!ooppss.but wth!
the thing that actually mad me mad.not because that im tired and i need to take lift down.
100 meters to carpark.and climb the flight of stairs.and down and walk back home level 4.
but because she said.she was dissapointed with her children.one after another.
wo seriously.i was fuming.i can hear my own breathing.
well.when i walked out.i said.what if i say,im dissapointed with you too?
ahh.amek kau.but im sure she didnt hear that.not refering only to her.
but to be exact them lahh ehh.
WTF!
fishmonger.i should write somewhere else.to go indetails.
in the land i called.MY OWN!
seriously.think abt it.each time parents say.they are dissapointed in children.
it gets so sickening.they wont even tell you in what ways they are dissapointed in their children.
so i can infer.anything parents do.children can also say.im dissapointed in my parents.
they children go.they are always dissapointmt.HAHA.how cool is that.
but reflect and think eh.
there is surely a reason behind this dissapointmt.
and have you ever wonder.that dissapointmt.one day.will be questioned to you too..
dont always say.that you are dissapointed in someone.
but think what makes you cant accept the fact that the person is like that.
wellbeing.the past.morale.its all the things shape the person.
ALL i can say.
SILENCE IS REAL GOLDEN.

seriously.i thought i could post smthg on a happier note.
actually the past whole wk.im quite happy with life.
though i feel troubled*and seriously,no one is there for you.its just not comfortable,ppl wont bother*
some good news.obviously.
but thanks to some ppl.i dont even wanna wake up tmr.and be good ass.
i wish.im the rebellious sort.play soccer all day long.and create music like how matreps do.
but behaving like matreps.get you nowhere.
but thats stupid right.
i just need to do smthg right.till now.i still cant find it.

on a happier note.auntie is remarrying again during weekends.and some cousin down the line marrying too.
so im like booked.
and fuckedly.i wanna play soccer.i just need the right ppl to make it wonderful!

reggae?