i think this way!=)

well.what a week i had.
i got the panic of my life.struggles of my life.worries of my life.
but w/o this challenges i dont go any stronger nor better.

right now.im feelling tired.tiredtired.
i went for silat training tday.and had our latelate lunch at alazhar.
i know my dear npsilat mates said i wasnt in the right channel.
i felt weak.i dunno why.
i guess.physically and mentally im tired.

nxt thing is.
skool is ok.only the starting of the wk seems stressful.
must know all the skills.aduhhh..its like everythingeverything.
i know the skills,its whether i can execute it well or not.
focus wir.
3 presenatations to go and a critique to start.
common test otw:S

nxt.ok mum have been discharged from hospital.
alhamdulillah she's fine:)
May Allah bless you mum.

besides that.certain things have been a toll on me.
im tired physically and so is mentally.
juggling btwn.skool silat and family is not easy.
having to face all kinds of challenges add up the pressure.
but that will make me stronger.
i guess i have to be strong and ready to take everything.
everything happens for a reason and maybe something better is up for me.
only Allah knows.
maybe a gold in ivp.heh..that would be great.
i need a booster motivation.

i just need motivation.
feeling rather helpless.i hope mentally im prepared for things in life
physically ive been silating till i keep on losing weight.
i notice i dont usually eat as much..: O
right now im starting to have flu..o.O
and im so mad that the attchmt money is not in.I NchEED IT!
having phlegm-my cough now.omg no sick no sick no sick.

to start off.ok
IVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVPIVP.
ok i need to remind myself that ivp is in 2 weeks time.
i want my family to watch me:)
i now on 29/30 sunda has performance at taman warisan
o.O im not performing.tk best cos of ivp

what should i do now?
reggaethon