i think this way!=)

alright.here comes another weekend..oh not again.the not again is for the monday actually.
aduhh..
ive noticed that im regular updating my blog.NOT!

hows the wk?
damn.it was i dunno.kind off ended it with a boomxz at silat.
it wasnt that boomz of perfection but rather more of satisfaction in the inside.
i foresee that projects/presentation is so irritatingly alot.and all i have been doing is NSL.
got ns1.ns2.pharm.nsl again.ouh yeah gorgeous NR.not.
i have yet to get an article.ouh shit.i have to choing alrdy.
since im not gonna be free..somehow.
ouh yeah.tuesday..futsal is all i can remember.
wow.i like running/sprinting for ball.its like im BELLAMY!
and shikin have been irritatingly calling me..erm..star player.
well if im one.nvm sehh.sumore infront of the freshies isnt that good.haha.
just that.i have more experienced than you ppl.
if im really good my talent should have been discovered.sadly..blom lagi..haha
weddie.ouh yeah..i know iwent for silat training in skool.and watch ppl spar.
i have no one to spar with except with myself.
thursie.ouh yeah.i had to puasa.i feel so good after that.seriously i was high during one of the tutes.so fun..
and friday.oh god.disaster.
though i had lunch at alumni with my friends and exmentor.she treat us eh:D
thanks DR!
then met dina.the woman who have problem with her phone.mcm owner lah!
to give the ivp forms.and reluctantly me not signing one of the papers.
tu lah sape suro..sign pagi2 bute..mane ke mane otak ke mane.DOOINK!
then had classes.which was rather ok.we ended the day with an half an hour class.cool!
then.i went out with my mates.
initially idea was to meet dina and go home tgther with her..
now i feel bad.i should have chose that.
the satisfaction in the inside is there.what i mean companion.
ouh yeah meet zaheera.dier dah kurus joy!
planned to meet wid at 630 with the usual silat clans but ended up reaching there at 7.
feeliing moodily.down..i bought two iced longans.to cool myslef down.haha
i told wid my unhappiness.and she told me her happiness.
she met suhana.yass and shak at vivo .y know:( no fair!
ouh yeah.we had the last silat training before the comp.
im ubberly excited.and wondering how will i fair.
i need motivation.you bole?
somehow.letting your anger out through sweats is surely best!
you dont have to stressed your heart and mind.though exercising is stressing heart but in a good way.
feel like no problem and alle came.oH god i miss him!:D
and i belong to the grp off ppl who needs to exercise to be better.
not abt losing weight or whatsoever but more off chemicals in brain.
HORMONES!

im still not over it.i wonder why ppl use you for their benefit of theirs when we actually dont have such intention.cmon live it up.live a fair life and god will help you.
in the end,who will suffer?
relationship sores.emotionally unstable.mind haywire.
like i say again.im nobody to you and my views are just pointless.
and everybody change.
they are not in the position.im in.and im not in a position they're in.
but the main thing is.life=value of it.see it and you will understd<3
the appreciation f life you dont understd then mature up and understd.
get the clear picture.

im not getting support from my friends.somehow.
but i think silat always makes me feel good.no wonder ive been in it for nearly 9 years.
the meaning to it.reflects on oneself.
now i got a bigger family of silat.im greatful:D
the companion is awesome.be it in sunda or np.

i just need motivation.and i love you!
wonders do happen and be patient.
all the best to pesilat sunda on sunday..that gold is mine.HAHA.
woo.confident.

reggaethon.chiong-nging to slp!